It's time for a reality check.

I need to know what's/who's important to me and why.

I'm so sick of loving someone and not being loved in return. I'm so sick of being concerned over people who don't give a fuck about how I feel. I'm so sick of my feelings being overlooked. I'm so sick of being forgotten. I'm so sick of not having someone there to just listen to me. I'm so sick of putting up this facade. I'm so sick of feeling worthless.

I'm just so fucking fed-up with everything.

@_: who the fuck am I to you???? i'm just someone that's always going 2 be there for you aren't i? i'm never really me around you i guess. you'd judge me and i hate it. you don't even bother to consider my feelings. i'm always giving in to you. when will you actually make me feel like i deserve that name/place??? i really tried to be the best for you, but i'm really not deserving am i? i'm so sick of trying, i'm giving up.

Words. People say really nice things to me. How much they love me and how much they appreciate me being around. I wonder how much of that is actually true?? Through their actions I see no truth behind anything...

I hate the feeling of knowing that no one truly loves you.

Who really cares for me, who really knows me, who really listens to me??????? I only know one person whom I'm 100% sure that really knows everything about me.

I need you so much now Serene Lim, & I hate the fact that you're in China. Come back soon.



/// Thanks soulsister for being there 4 me. ily (L)