I don't feel like updating with photos..... Ugh I'm just so tired these few days. Have been out almost everyday (when I actually wake up :S)

I'm the type of girl who needs to HIBERNATE for an hour after she walks for 5mins. So yeah I've been feeling really drained out. Still am. And I keep on eatingGGGGggg..... ITS CRAZY. Every minute u look at me, I'M PUTTING FOOD IN MY MOUTH.

@#$%^&*()(*&*(!@#$%^&*(

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :@

I'm going nuts. I'm just going to photo update now.

GH w hotel81 HAHAHHAHA. (w soulsis only though :3)



























































































HAHAHA I LOVE NICOLE HIORNSSSSSSSSSSSS (Y)

What do you expect me to say when you're always pushing me away?? I am who I am. Essentially that may not be the girl you want to completely understand, to share your thoughts with, to just be yourself with. You have a foil around you, protecting you from what?? Me?? You tell me to open up, and when I do, you selfishly push me away. Fucking hurts every single time.

You claim you don't understand me. But have you ever tried? Just a little?? I don't even understand myself/you sometimes, I do things rashly. I fuck things up on a daily basis. But why can't you just understand that that's just... me? Even just a little understanding will suffice. I don't need you to always be there. But will you ever know the difference between sometimes and never?

Now I'm just wondering if I should be someone I'm not. Because that seems to be the only way to help me understand you.

O's R OFFICIALLY OVER!!!!!

Well yesterday.

Hahaha but it's the last paper and I have a feeling I fucked it up. I really hope I didnt. Never expected to fuck it up. But... sigh what can I say? It's alr over. :D


Caught Jennifer's body w Maan, Nic, RG & Claudiiii :) The company was awesome but the movie was fucking scary!!! Gore is rly not my type. I hate hate hate it. Kill me naoOOOx. :'( Oh and I went for a pedi with pei before that. :D It was fucking painful though. _l_ Ccb.

HAHA.

Went over to maan's house and watched the zohan show. I thought it was ok.... but hell stupid. HAHA. Played rockband and I was so tired by then. Went home and slept. Instantly.

Today is a boring dayyyyyyyyy. Blasting tokio hotel. Hmm....... going to take a bath. I feel like hibernating today.

They're telling me
It's beautiful
I believe them
But will I ever know
The world behind my wall

The sun will shine
Like never before
One day I will be
Ready to go
See the world behind my wall

Chinese is O V E R!!!!!

I hope I can get my A1. I pray pray pray I do. Cuz I thought paper 1 was relatively okay.. Paper 2's compre was a fucking killer. I think I'm going to fail that one. :'( I really pray pray pray I do well. Come onnnnnnnnnnnnnn, be nice SEAB. :)

I really don't wna do chinese in JC :'( I'm going to write in!! I swear. My chinese is so horrible they wouldn't want to have anything to do w it. I KNOW.

I'LL JUST SPEAK LIKE ALY/NIC

:3

HAHAHAHHA JOKING. I love you both (L)

Physics MCQ is O V E R too!!!!!!!!! Awesome. I'm not going to touch physics. EVER. It's horrible. But I have a damn feeling I might just be an idiot and do it for JC. Idk. I was careless though, lost one mark alr. Angry >:@ But they repeated questions from the TYS :3 that's gUUUuUd. (Y) So overall it was okay, A1 A1 come on. Do mrs tong prouddddd :)

NOW ALL THERE'S LEFT IS CHEM!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT :)))) EggCiTeddddddx. I need the full marks for chem. PlzplzPLZZZZZZZZZZ (Y)

I'm going for pedi/mani with pei aft chem too. Then I'm going to try the new japanese shampoo dye thing :3 CAN'T WAIT. It's only like.... 3 days away. GIVE IT TO ME NAOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! (Y) & then movie night (?) @ maaan's house :))) YAYYY. FREEDOM.

F R E E D O M IS HERE BABY.

On this day of your life, Shanice, we believe God wants you to know ... that you can only give away what you already have inside yourself.

True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share. When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open. There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing. It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own self with these emotions.

I wish I could be alot of things.

Taller, prettier, skinnier, smarter......

and the list goes on.

I just wish people would stop playing up my lack there-ofs. Making me feel so fucking lousy. Sometimes I don't say anything cuz I know I will end up crying. Because I know it's true. I'm not strong enough to face my issues. So I lock them away. Hoping I'll never have to face them.

Guess what. Life's a bitch.

It hunts you down. You can never hide from it. No matter how far you run, it'll catch up with you. And screw you inside out, just like it has done to me.

I hate being fat. It's the top of the list. I wish I could stop eating. I really do. I must devise a plan, and stick to it of course. I always say I will but I never do it. GAH I HATE MYSELF. WHY AM I SUCH A LOSER



Everyone should laugh at themselves, sometimes.
But when it becomes too much I don't know how to stop it.

ITS OVER OVER OVER. Well almost.

On this day of your life, Shanice, we believe God wants you to know ... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

I love this app on fb, it's my favourite :) Hate the stupid fortune teller though >:( It's evil.


Anw!!!! LIT IS OFFICIALLY O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Omg I am so glad I won't have to touch fahrenheit or whose life anymore!!! FREAKING UNBURDENED!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN YOU BEATTY, MONTAG, FABER (thanks for coming out today though), GRANGER, MILDREaD, ALL YOU SHIT PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Oh and KERSHAW.

DAMN YOU!!!!!!! :@:@:@ You appeared like what?? Once in the book! Stupid asshole!!!!! Ok nvm I bet others couldn't do it tooo :3 I'm not the only one. Hehehehe.

Went for lunch w nisey today! I miss my deeeees :):) Hehehe it was good catching up. And I'm so stupid, I can't believe I didnt bring my wallet to sch!!!! I am a loser. Nyeh. Thanks for lending me money babeeee. (oh u won't be reading this will you, you don't have your mac :p) And the boook, thanks deees!!! I will read it and beat you! :3 Hehehe.

I didnt bring my camera out though.... My blog is extremely boring now. There's no photos. Ugh. I will go on a camera WHoRE week aft next week. Can't wait to bring my juicy nikon out :333 Hehehe.

PHOTOS BABEZ.






Serene gave this to me, always forgot to post it up :) I loveee her. Whenever I feel like everythings going to kill me, I'll look @ it and smile :)








YEZZZZZZZ AND CHINESE





I (L) U DEES :)


EDIT:

HAHAHA MY BROTHER SHOWED ME THIS A FEW DAYS AGO. FREAKIN HILARIOUS



WATCH IT

Fucking hate cocky people. Fuckers.

Go to hell bitch.

History was the worst paper of the centuryyyyyyyy