I wish I could be alot of things.

Taller, prettier, skinnier, smarter......

and the list goes on.

I just wish people would stop playing up my lack there-ofs. Making me feel so fucking lousy. Sometimes I don't say anything cuz I know I will end up crying. Because I know it's true. I'm not strong enough to face my issues. So I lock them away. Hoping I'll never have to face them.

Guess what. Life's a bitch.

It hunts you down. You can never hide from it. No matter how far you run, it'll catch up with you. And screw you inside out, just like it has done to me.

I hate being fat. It's the top of the list. I wish I could stop eating. I really do. I must devise a plan, and stick to it of course. I always say I will but I never do it. GAH I HATE MYSELF. WHY AM I SUCH A LOSER



Everyone should laugh at themselves, sometimes.
But when it becomes too much I don't know how to stop it.