What do you expect me to say when you're always pushing me away?? I am who I am. Essentially that may not be the girl you want to completely understand, to share your thoughts with, to just be yourself with. You have a foil around you, protecting you from what?? Me?? You tell me to open up, and when I do, you selfishly push me away. Fucking hurts every single time.

You claim you don't understand me. But have you ever tried? Just a little?? I don't even understand myself/you sometimes, I do things rashly. I fuck things up on a daily basis. But why can't you just understand that that's just... me? Even just a little understanding will suffice. I don't need you to always be there. But will you ever know the difference between sometimes and never?

Now I'm just wondering if I should be someone I'm not. Because that seems to be the only way to help me understand you.